I.
There´s clarity of mind,
Now that I´ve left you behind,
Now that I don´t care for anyone,
Sometimes there is too much Sun,
So today I am glad to shut the light out
Pretend that there is no-one or nothing.
The cold soft snow cools my feet,
As I tread on into the cold and out of your sight,
Pale cold light, gives me insulation,
The silence of snow, the quiet and the cold,
I am alone in the snow walking peacefully in thought,
Thoughts about places, cold and high, with
Trees like spires,
Each one a Cathedral of the Earth,
To walk on through this.
Away from pain away from dirt,
Away from what I cannot escape,
Our destiny is to be far apart
Apple of my heart.
But I do not know our destiny either,
So I can´t truly say, except that our destiny is
to be apart now.
What did I hope for what did I see?
What did you think that we could be?
Friends forever you wrote to me, but with Red Roses and Hearts…
Roses and Hearts, Red. What I read, was not what you said.
Time now is mine, I am lord and master of my fate,
A fate which I do not know,
But which itself already half unfolded,
Seems to be present with me as I walk alone.
Sad eyes and a sad heart,
I dreamed I went inside my heart,
And I found myself knee deep in blood.
Waterfalls of blood, beaches and seas of blood,
With the stars shining up above,
But blood not of fear or death,
Good, delicious blood, warm and lovely.
In my heart there are these waterfalls,
Beaches with stars and sky,
There is warmth despite the cold snow I walk in.
My blood is a fine place,
And you are invited and allowed,
If you can walk through its walls of clouds.
II.
I dreamed I went insider my heart,
And it was warm in there,
Waterfalls and rivers of blood,
Cool mountain streams and forests,
Nourished by my own red life blood.
I dreamed I went inside my heart,
And I wasn´t alone,
There was someone perfect,
Walking with me,
On the edge of the ocean in my heart,
And the stars shone down in the darkness,
From its walls.
And on the beach I walked with her,
With oceans on either side,
And eventually the beach disappeared and
We were swimming under moonlight,
Towards a mountain, towards land,
But the sea was nourishing delicious, warm blood,
And under the water your hand found my hand.
Outside the walls of my heart deserts bloom,
With sadness, loneliness and spines of pain,
But inside, I am showered in hot waterfalls,
Of warm radiant, red liquid, glistening in the Sun.
Inside I am never alone.
III.
Sat in the mountains, surrounded by snow,
I found what it is that I wanted to know,
There was light inside all along,
And a perfect world inside my heart,
Pristine love dawns as I empty my mind
Of jealousy, doubt, fear and what I thought I´d find.
When I go into this perfect place,
I see green oak trees leaves, blown by the breeze
And I am still and solid and joy is mine,
And when I know myself and what I am to be,
You appear in my garden and come to me,
And there is no doubt, there is no-one else,
You come to me by yourself.
When the world attacks the mind making it fall,
I´ll go into my heart and find this waterfall,
And I´ll find happiness again.
When I remember that I need nothing and no-one,
Because I have peace,
Joy will overflow,
And there will be nothing but dazzling beautiful light.
There in the fields and mountains in my heart,
We´ve been walking from the start.